tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-79822972195292729182024-03-13T16:26:39.396-07:00100 MondaysAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09061566752509658808noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7982297219529272918.post-71232881371245535182014-10-27T21:43:00.000-07:002014-10-27T21:43:08.093-07:00Monday #9--Seeing clearly<div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">"I can see clearly now the rain is gone.<br /> I can see all obstacles in my way.<br /> Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind.<br /> It's gonna be a bright (bright) bright (bright) sunshinin' day.<br /> It's gonna be a bright (bright) bright (bright) sunshinin' day."</span></div>
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<span><br /><span style="font-size: large;"> "I Can See Clearly Now" by Johnny Nash </span></span><br /> </div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">After my depress-fest post from last week I want to be happier. I am at least on this journey and being more honest with myself about what I eat, why I eat it and where I really want to be in life. When I think about the fact that my kids will get to see my struggle someday and know that I was trying to improve myself for the better that motivates me to want to go on. I will continue this journey for the people who are here and hereafter so that I can motivate someone else to improve their life. The only way to do that is to <b>do this</b> and lose some weight. I am still here and I am still going! </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I am officially 325.8 pounds. Not close to where I want to be after nine weeks, but I have lost some weight and I just have to get consistent in my eating and moving to lose weight consistently.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I love my sister. I preface this post by saying that because the
stories herein may come across like I am some gigantic clutz/jerk who
does not love his sister, but that is far from the truth. I was a fat
kid and oftentimes I did not know the true magnitude of my girth. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">One
Sunday morning I remember coming into my sister's room while she was
sleeping. I think my mother was in the room too and we were all getting
ready to go somewhere. I just plopped down on what I thought was the
edge of my sister's bed. Well as soon as I sat down my sister shot up
and started screaming like she was possessed. This scared the crap out
of me and I thought she had awakened from some horrible nightmare. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">She
was in a horrible nightmare, but it involved my fat behind. When I sat
down I plopped right on her ankle and sprained it. She needed crutches
and I felt incredibly guilty. That, however, is not the worst part of
the story. When freak accidents happen they scare us, but after the
healing we go back to our complacent ways. In other words a few months
later I skipped my fat behind into my sister's room and sat on her bed
and she shot up and...I wish I had a time machine. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"> Actual picture of me at 9 years old:</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Another
time when we were kids we were in the back yard and I was lifting her
by her legs up a tree. In fairness to me I thought there were some bird
eggs up there, which was really cool, and since she could not lift me
it only made logical sense that I lift her up by her legs on this tree
while unsupervised. She naturally was terrified having never been up
that high and pleaded with me to let her down. I was angry at that
point at missing my chance to see some cool bird eggs and said "FINE!"
and dropped her. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-size: large;">I literally opened my arms and let my sister, my baby
sister, drop to the ground. Again, that is not the worst part of the
story. She scraped her stomach against the tree. So while I was
supposed to be watching my sister and "playing nice" I instead was
hoisting her up trees and exposing her to potential gangrene conditions
in the outback wilderness otherwise known as our backyard.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Now
before you start believing that I am a horrible monster and this was a
one sided bullyfest I have two stories that show there was some level of
turn about. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Once my sister was watching a show in the living room and
she left the room for some reason. Obviously this meant I could change
the channel to whatever I wanted to watch that was not the obvious crap
she had chosen before. When she returned to the room she definitely
wasn't pleased and requested the remote control back. I refused and may
have potentially "run" a little bit with the remote until I was
cornered by a wall. At that point I thought to myself, "Really, what is
she going to do?" </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"> My actual face at that moment:</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Well what she did was take both of her hands, grabbed
the pointer finger of my left hand and turned (some would say wrenched
it) allll the way around. I never knew that your finger could actually
turn almost 360 degrees. I learned that fun fact at that moment. And
yes it felt exactly how you think it would. I remember my knuckle
swelling up and my finger hurting for a few days. I never went to the
doctor (did I mention I was from North Carolina) and to this day that
finger looks and feels different than the one on my other hand. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"></span><br /></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">The
last story didn't happen until we were teenagers. I think I was 17 or
18 and she was either 16 or 17. We were at the mall and we went to the
food court. We ordered from Taco Bell (because why not right?) and I
remember she ordered nachos. When we sat down with our food, she must
have forgotten something because she started to get up. She turned to
me, looked me in my eye, she may have pointed at me and fog may have
arisen around us as she said, "Do not TOUCH my nachos." She then walked
away.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"></span><br /></div>
<div>
<span style="font-size: large;">Ok, so obviously even if I was not
considering it before I was now forced to take a
majjjor portion of her nacho real estate. On principle of course.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"> </span></div>
<div>
<span style="font-size: large;">As I was eating them three
thoughts actually popped into my head:</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"></span><br /></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">A) YOU are not my MOMMA!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">B) YOU do not tell ME what to do!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">C) THESE NACHOS are especially GOOD this season.</span></div>
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probably because my sister smacked the SH*T out of me. The smack,
which was really loud, was not the worst part. The worst part was that
sitting about ten feet away from us at another table were two teenage
boys who were DYING laughing at what they just saw. It was like Sinbad,
Martin, and Def Comedy Jam were performing live for them at our table.
If my face could have turned red, like my left cheek probably did, it
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<span style="font-size: large;">The lesson I learned from
that, naturally, is that my sister is right handed. I should have
expected the hit and been ready with my left arm to guard myself. Then I
could have laughed at her and cracked a joke about her being an
unsuccessful abuser instead of sitting with my cheek bumping as the
world laughed at my pain. See people, you have to pay attention to the
lessons in life..it's the little things.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">It was great growing up with her. We had lots of tender moments as well and I always know there is one other person in the world who knows what it was like to grow up in our home. I hope my sons get to experience the lifelong love that we have (minus the potential assault charge worthy behavior).</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Join me on this journey next week as I mark #10 into the books.</span> </div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"> "Sometimes I give myself the creeps</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"> Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"> It all keeps adding up</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"> I think I'm cracking up</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"> Am I just paranoid?</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"> Am I just stoned?" </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">It was a really bad week mentally. I have felt like giving up, which is incredibly pathetic. It is like saying you are going to run a marathon, then deciding to quit after your first five feet. But, truthfully I have wondered if I can really do this. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Losing one hundred pounds is a big goal and these first few pounds have played with my mind. I have been engaging in bad comfort food habits for years and doing something different has been difficult. And by that I mean I have not really changed anything yet. I took the batteries out of my scale because I am so embarrassed that my weight is creeping back up. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I think about things I say to my kids and I feel like a hypocrite. I don't let them use the word "can't" around me and I tell them that just because you are not good at something at first does not mean you should just give up. I tell them to keep trying and keep pushing. I tell them that they can be great and they just have to give their best. I tell them these things because I believe they are true..for them. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">My problem has been believing that all of this good advice is universal and actually applies to me as well. I walk around with my mental hangups and intellectual road blocks and convince myself that the<i> trying itself</i> is a wasted effort. Failure is definite so give up before you embarrass yourself--is a song that plays in my head at different volumes constantly. I read about successful people all the time--it is one of my favorite past times. The constant theme is that they are just as scared or more scared than most people, but they act despite their fears. They push to greater heights even when their mind is screaming the "you-are-not-good-enough" mantra. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I read this and understand this, but <b>knowing it to be true for me</b> has been the barrier. I do not really know how to overcome that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Growing up as a teenager in North Carolina was fascinating. At the time all of my insecurity and uncertainty about life pressed upon me, but looking back I could see how my environment was positively shaping who I was. I used to attend church regularly and my mother encouraged me to go out for the Church Basketball Team. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Now I do not know the exact rules for how you select players for Church League Basketball, but I am pretty sure it is something like, "If the kid's family goes to Church, then they are automatically accepted onto the team." I am sure that the selection process for the choir was much, much tougher and if you could not sing the Choir Director would say something like: "You are terrible! We are making a joyful noise unto the Lord and we will not have your non-singing self participate! Use your other holy gifts that the Lord has bestowed upon thee like...umm...sitting quietly and listening to us sing!"-and then the Choir Director would put the lollipop back in his mouth.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">So I was a part of the "team". My first coach was a man who if I saw him today would probably still make me a little nervous. Let us call him "Lil' Debo". Lil' Debo, much like his name sake, was tough as nails and I think even his eyebrows were made of muscle. I don't think I ever actually understood a word he said except for an occasional "RUHN!" "JUMPHH!" "PLAY BETTA!!" He also had the strongest handshake of any person on Earth. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When he shook your hand his goal was to try and get your pointer finger knuckle and pinky finger knuckle to touch in a warm embrace--otherwise known as breaking your hand. He would not stop there as his second goal was to get them to do a seductive rhythmic samba as you literally cried in pain. I am pretty sure he punished his kids by making them shake his hands.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Looking back I am glad Lil' Debo was my coach. I was so terrified of him, and I think my teammates were as well, that I ran when I didn't want to and PLAYED BETTA out of fear that he would whoop my tail. I learned to push myself a little bit, which was an important lesson for me. I also learned that being a little scared of your coach is good for discipline and motivation. Having respect for his authority as coach helped shaped my character. Plus if I didn't show him respect he would have made me shake his hand.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Now my formative teenage years were during the 1990's so I was subject to the phenomena of the day. At that time there was a focus on young Black men going to prison at ever increasing rates. Someone decided the solution to this problem was to take youth who were going down the "wrong path" to the place they were headed; specifically prison. This program affectionately known as "Scared Straight" was en vogue back then. If you don't understand the concept it is like taking a young man who smokes a little marijuana to a crack house and yelling at him the whole time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Lil' Debo decided that what we needed to increase our discipline was a visit to the local jail so we could be Scared Straight. I was too scared of Lil' Debo to raise any objections, and my mother probably assumed this made sense because she had a young Black boy who would face all kinds of pressures in life as he became a man. Plus I don't think my protest would have succeeded anyway.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Me: "Listen, I get it..but I really don't need to do this. I am a good guy, I don't do any drugs. I am not having sex, (even though if I knew how I could have some sex I would do that immediately!). I am playing Church basketball people, the key word is <b>Church</b>. I am straight, I promise! You don't need to scare me."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Prison Guard: "Well the form here says you are a teenager and you are Black so you are definitely going to jail. GET ON THE BUS MAGGOT!!"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">So I was headed to jail along with my teammates. I have no clue what I expected when I was on my way, but I just knew I was scared. Movies and television shows were made about prison and they were never nice stories about people acting kind to one another, praying together and getting on the court for a friendly game of b-ball. The movies usually involved a knife and someone using it not to cut food, someone being beat up by a group of other people, and the violent assault upon one man's out passage by another man's dual function lever. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I do not know exactly how young men grow up now, but when I was a teenager one of the major rules was: DO EVERYTHING YOU CAN NOT TO BE RAPED WHILE IN PRISON! (this is found in Section 32B of the "Growing Up" handbook which of course is available on Amazon). </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Up until that point in life I never even thought about that rule, since I was not planning on going to prison anytime soon and I was doing everything I could not to ever go. But now, on this bus I was headed to a place where the "while in prison" part of the rule was going into effect. I was nervous, on guard and irrationally scared as crap.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Looking back there are only a few things that spring to my mind about my Scared Straight experience. The jail itself was a compilation of rooms with bars that could automatically open and close, and lots and lots of cots. It looked like every movie scene of military barracks I had ever seen and I guess that made sense when you think about it. These men were told where to go, when to sleep, and when to eat at every point of the day which was similar to a soldier's life. The only difference was they were not being paid for their time and when they got out there were not going to be any "benefits".</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I remember most of the men were Black. At the time I don't think I thought much about it, but looking back we were not in the majority in my city, region or state. And yet in that jail at that time, I was seeing men who looked like they could be my cousin everywhere I turned. My whole basketball team was Black, so I am sure my teammates were feeling some strange feeling just like I was. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">So we were walking through the jail, seeing different rooms there and having prisoners talk to us and stand really close to us and brush up against us every now and then. I don't remember any of us "acting tough" because we were all young, good kids who just wanted to be the hell up out of there. Everything was going as well as I guess it could have when it happened.....</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I looked up from the room and about ten feet away there was this opening in a wall that was covered in glass. I assume about ten feet behind that wall was where the showers were. The opening was obviously there so a guard could look into the showers and make sure there were no shenanigans going on. But the thing about windows is that they have two faces...</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">A man walked into the area of the glass opening with a wide smile. He had a shaggy almost afro and started drying himself off in front of us. He was completely naked and to this day had the largest penis I have ever seen in my life. Let us name him "Killa". </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Here is another fun fact about Killa, he was way, way, way too comfortable talking to 11, 12 and 13 year old boys, while naked and drying himself off, while in prison. I don't remember much of what he said, but I am sure my eyes and my teammates' eyes were bugging. I do remember one thing he said, "What y'all ain't never seen a GROWN man before? Move a little closer!" I did not however, "move a little closer". I was frozen in place, wishing to God this man would not KEEP TALKING TO ME AND TRYING TO STARE INTENTLY INTO MY EYES. My greatest fear was that his d*ck was going to bust through the glass somehow and touch me from ten feet away. I was also probably wondering how his penis was hitting the side of his ankle while he was standing straight up like he was tapping out a beat. At least that is what I wondered in my nightmares later.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Looking back I would have asked him some questions (while maintaining constant eye contact with his face...just his face).</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Me: Sir what is your name?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Killa: Well "sugar buns" they call me Killa.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Me: Please don't call me that.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Killa: Ok "honey tail".</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Me: Sir what are you in for?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Killa: Ummm..tax fraudulense?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Me: Right...do you have any problems in here?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Killa: Yes I most definitely do!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Me: What are they?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Killa: Well "sweet throat" I have an ass problem! See...</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Seeing Killa was incredibly unpleasant, because he vividly reminded us that we were in a prison with grown men. If we ever came to the prison we would be forced to be around other men, eat together, shower together and sleep together (on cots, please just on the cots!!) When I left that prison I was changed. I was a good kid before, but now I had a little extra motivation not to be an idiot. What is that? You want to hang out after school? MY MOMMY SAID I HAVE HOMEWORK!! MY MOMMY SAID I HAVE HOMEWORK!!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I imagined getting arrested and convicted and going back to that prison except this time the conversation with Killa would be different. First someone would push me into a room and there would be Killa with a wide smile.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">(While Holding his finger to my lips) Killa: "Don't talk "sugar". They call me Killa and from now on they will call you "my bitch". Let me show you how this works, just get on your knees (unziiipppp)."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Yeah, that was not happening because I was scared completely straight. In a way that weird social experiment worked, since I stayed away from activities that could put me in a cot next to Killa. I think if I saw Coach Lil' Debo again I would thank him for being so tough and for taking us to jail that one time. But I would definitely give him a fist bump though...</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">P.S.--The mind can be a terrible machine sometimes. The one thing I can not remember about that moment with Killa is the towel. I CAN NOT REMEMBER THE TOWEL! Out of all the horribleness of seeing Killa play the original ADAM I can not remember the towel. It is like I just remember him making all the hand motions of drying, but doing it while only holding air. YOU HAD ONE JOB PART OF MY MIND THAT SUPPRESSES HORRIBLE MEMORIES!! </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">P.S.S.--Special shout out to my wife and best friend who convinced me to be honest and keep this up. I can do this because you are here to support me. Special shout out also goes to the smartest seven footer I personally know who told me I need to get on this blog post because the people are waiting for it! Thanks for the extra motivation bro...</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">"Ever tried. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"> No matter.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"> Try again.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"> Fail again.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"> Fail better."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I am 325.6 pounds. Someone I love and trust very much told me I need to be harder on myself and set more specific goals. That is good advice, so this week I want to walk for at least 3 hours total and do something that makes me sweat and feel energized everyday. I want to lose three pounds by next Monday (October 20, 2014) and I know I can do it by eating less and moving much more. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">This is my 7th week into my journey and I am happy to still be here doing it. I have to raise my level of commitment and I will. My life is messy, big and beautiful and I want to live it and enjoy it as long as possible. Losing this weight and staying healthy physically and mentally can only give me positive results.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Last week I told the story of how I learned to ride a bike by falling several times. Well I was able to ride a bike, but I never became an expert. In fact I took some chances that at the time made perfect sense, but now seem pretty stupid.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">In our neighborhood bike riding was the main activity. Kids at every age level would ride their bikes up and down the cul-de-sac. But my neighbor, let us call him Keanu, was the leader of the bike riding pack. He was what I imagine girls would refer to as a "bad boy", he was a tough kid who didn't smile much and loved to do "tough things". I don't know what any of those "tough things" actually were other than riding his bike fast, but I am pretty sure he did not button his collared shirt all the way up! </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">His dad had built him a bike ramp. At the time it looked like a an amazing feat of engineering that I could not understand. Now looking back I realize it was just an inclined plane that went up a few feet, and no I could not build that for my kids on demand without having written instructions and watching a 20 minute Youtube lecture that I stopped and replayed every 3 minutes to understand it. His dad did not have that modern technology so he simply built his son a kick ass bike ramp for the 80's.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"> The Ramp:</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I used to watch Keanu and the other neighborhood boys get up lots of speed and go up that ramp and "fly" in the air and come down safely on the pavement. I must have watched them do that tens of times, over and over. I imagine that I was fine just watching, enjoying the spectacle and feeling a part of the action even thought I most definitely was not. Then one day it happened.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Keanu said to me, "Hey, you want to try it?" He said that to me. He asked if I wanted to try it, which was like giving me permission to try it. That was awesome. I was definitely going to try it, because he asked me to and I would look like a punk if I said no and my sister was standing right beside me when he asked and I would look like a punk to her if I said no.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Here are a couple of reasons why I should not have tried it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">1) I had never seen bike "stunts" before. In this day and age everyone is used to Tony Hawk and the "RIDICULOUSNESS" phenomena of seeing skaters and bikers doing all kinds of crazy stunts on the television. That did not exist when I was a kid. Today, this is a world where the ESPN "X" Games exists. The first time I turned to ESPN and my regularly scheduled zoning-out programming was interrupted by the "X" Games you should have seen my face. I was so confused. There were people riding bikes doing stunts on television then after I naturally turned the channel and turned back in ten minutes hoping the mistake had been fixed there were other people doing ski "tricks" on television. I thought I was being punked. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I wanted to call up my cable company and say this, "Hello, hi yes ummm..I think there has been some mistake. Yes I know you know my address, but ummm.., I don't know how to say this but only Black people live here. Yes, I am African-American, no, no I get that all the time; I have talked this way my whole life. Yeah, and I turned to ESPN and sports is not on it. What's on it? Well there are these people riding bikes and skiing I think? Those are sports? Where do they play those sports? No, I am sorry I am not interested can you change it back please?"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">2) I did not have the equipment to get on that ramp. Here is what I mean. I imagine when my parents bought me a bike, they thought "Hey, he kind of sucks at riding a bike so let's get him the safest option out there." Well, the "safest option out there" featured a specific warning on the side of the bike. This is almost verbatim what that warning said, "THIS BIKE IS NOT MADE FOR STUNTS. DO NOT ATTEMPT ANY STUNTS ON THIS BIKE. IF YOU DO ATTEMPT STUNTS ON THIS BIKE YOU WILL DIE A FIERY DEATH. THAT MEANS YOU PERSON WHO IS READING THIS WARNING. ABANDON ALL HOPE YE WHO ATTEMPT STUNTS ON THIS BIKE!!" or something to that effect.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">3) I was a really bad bike rider. I was just getting the hang of not falling when I tried to ride in a straight line. I repeat: Not <strong>falling</strong> when I <em>tried</em> to ride in a straight line. You don't send your infant who took his first step out on the track to run the 100 meter dash at the Olympics. You don't put your first grader who just learned to make a fist into the Octagon to face "Rampage" Jackson in a no holds barred match. But you do send a shaky bike rider with too much unwarranted confidence onto a ramp of death to try his luck.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">So there I was twenty feet from the ramp ready to DO THIS!! I had seen these guys DO THIS countless times so I knew what I was doing. I would just build up speed, hit the ramp and glide through the air as I safely landed back onto the pavement. Effortless...</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I did build up speed. I managed to stay in a relatively straight line going towards that ramp at the fastest speed I could muster. I was able to hit that ramp in its relative middle at enough speed to give me a good lift into the air. What happened next is disputed, but what happened after that is not.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">My sister remembers this story as me getting about one to one and a half inches off the ramp into the air. I remember the story as being about eight to nine feet in the air. The truth is probably in the middle somewhere and I was about seven feet in the air off that ramp. Whether one inch or seven feet, at that time in my life I had never been that high in the air. As a kid I rarely jumped (did I mention I was fat)? In high school I could dunk the basketball so being high up in the air wasn't scary or weird. As a kid, however, I did not know what to do.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I was in the air and looked down and felt myself as almost weightless. I saw the bike under me and felt like I was still going up. Now when we make stupid decisions, I don't believe it is our intelligence at play as much as our instincts just being incorrect. Something told me (THE DEVIL) to let go. I was in the air, with my hands and body solidly on the bike and something in my head (THE DEVIL) told me to just let go. So I did.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I remember seeing the bike fading away, almost like it was falling somewhere behind me out of my line of vision. I felt like I was flying and I was horizontal to the ground. Like Superman really. And then I remember seeing the actual ground. The concrete started getting closer and closer to me. At that moment I realized I was not actually flying, but I was falling face first (again) into the sidewalk. I don't remember the pain, but I do know that I hit the pavement face first and I sliiiiiiiiiiddddd to a stop. My face and my whole body actually sliiiiiiiiidddd to a stop.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">That really must have hurt, but once again I don't remember anything after that. I imagine my sister went screaming into the house and my parents spatula'ed me off the ground and brought me inside. I never tried Keanu's bike ramp again and I don't remember playing with him much after that. I probably should have put that one minor setback aside and practiced my bike stunt skills more, but I decided to retire my wild bike side after that and stick to leisurely rides around the neighborhood. Just shaky straight lines for me thanks!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I will see you next week, three pounds lighter with another story to tell! </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I am 323.6 pounds. That sucks that I do not weigh less than that, but it is not all bad news. Yesterday I got on the basketball court, dribbled, ran and shot the ball for the first time in a long while. It felt very good to run up and down the court (by myself) and dribble the ball and make layups again. And by felt very good I mean, "OH GOD I AM SO OUT OF BREATH. WHY DID THEY MAKE THE RIM SO HIGH? I DON'T WANT TO BREAK A LEG ON THIS COURT OUT HERE ALONE! THIS WAS SO MUCH EASIER WHEN I WAS YOUNGER!" Besides the wheezing, I really enjoyed it and bouncing a ball and moving was special yesterday.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I am incorporating more activities into my weight loss; things I can do with my wife and kids. I love walking and playing basketball so while the weather is nice those will be my main activities. With winter coming (no House Stark-o) I have to come up with some fun indoor exercises to get me moving and keep me interested. I have to eat fewer calories, and burn many more calories so now I have to get to work!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Nothing motivates me like seeing other people beating me. The reason I know how to tie my shoes and ride a bike is because of my sister. I remember when I was a kid and my parents tried to show me how to tie my shoes I gave up because I decided it was too hard. I had the foresight to know that shoe tying was not something I needed to clog my brain with when there needed to be ample room for comic books and fantasy. Until one day, I saw my little sister sitting down on our steps with untied shoes. I expected her to call my parents, but what I saw next amazed me. She took the rabbit ears and put it through the rabbit hole and tied one shoe, then she tied the other shoe, and then she got up and walked away. I felt like I just saw an alien moonwalk across our driveway while pointing at me and nodding its head to an intergalactic beat. I didn't know many cuss words then, so I just yelled "NOOO" in my head. It was either that exact day or the next day that I learned to tie my shoes.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">A similar thing happened with riding a bike. My parents tried to teach me to ride a bike, I fell a few times and then decided that bike riding wasn't for me. See..the way my body was designed was not symetrical to the shape of most bikes therefore I had to sit down and read a comic book to work on my eye muscles. Then I saw my sister riding a bike and I am not quite sure, but I think she may have been popping wheelies and doing handstands that first time. Either that or that is what I imagined she was doing since I thought bike riding was impossible. I was determined to ride a bike just like my sister did <u>no matter what</u>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><u>No matter what</u> meant I fell on my ass every chance I had. I was finding new ways to fall off of a bike. Sideways, forward, backwards, upside down, reverse cowgirl...I think that last one was not a typical falling off of bike position but I was an innovator. It hurt to fall off that bike, but what hurt worse was my pride since I was the only person in our house who did not know how to ride.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Then this one day I decided to go outside early and practice by myself. I felt good that morning and for some reason there was no one outside when I went out. We lived on a U shaped cul-de-sac near the end of the horshoe and I decided to ride into the middle of the street towards the center of the U. When I say no one was outside, I mean no one was around like my name wasTom Cruise and I was driving through Times Square in "Vanilla Sky". When I say no one was around I mean like Will Smith when he is in NY in "I Am Legend", except I didn't have a dog that would become a mutant I would have to lovingly choke out. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">So I got on that bike and I expected to fall. Except I didn't fall, I was staying up. I was staying up! It was the shakiest bike ride in the history of bike rides, but I was staying on that bike! I was shake-riding my way down the street. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Now if this were a movie, you would see me--this oversized kid shake-riding on a little bike. Then the camera would pan out to a skinny, ominous looking tree that was growing at the middle of the U. Then you would see me with a gigantic smile as I was shake-riding down the middle of the street looking down at my bike and not noticing the terrifying tree which seemed to be growing bigger and thicker the closer I got. You would start to see me shaking even more, the camera would fade to black and you would hear a big crash and THUMP!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Well this was not a movie. I shake-rode that bike to the middle of the U; I think my front wheel hit the edge of the curb and I fell head first off the bike. Either I hit the curb (head first) or I hit the tree (head first). To this day the last thing I remember is starting to fall off the bike. The next thing I remember is waking up on the ground (ALL ALONE IN A POST-APOCALYPTIC WORLD) getting back on the bike and shake-riding home. My non-remembering or questioning of what happened will be important to the story (I promise).</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I had what I remember to be a normal night and then when I woke up in the morning I had a huge black eye. My mother was worried and my father said, "Did you get in a fight? If you did the other guy better look a lot worse than you do!" (Philly stand up?) I could not remember for the life of me why I had a black eye. Honestly, I didn't even remember falling off the bike or waking up on the ground. That was very scary, because I thought monsters were whooping my ass at night and then taking my memories away. Which is crazy, but the only rational explanation to a kid for not remembering why you have a black eye.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Then the next day, flashes of memories started coming back to me. I was sitting down watching television, and a flash of my shaky bike ride came to me. Then a few hours later a flash of the skinny tree came back to me. Then finally, I remembered the feeling of the bike tipping forward and the feeling of the curb getting closer to my face. I never remembered the impact, but the final thing I remembered was getting off the ground and riding home.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">That was my first concussion. I rung my own bell and I understood from personal experience what they mean when they say people with concussions have memory issues. I don't remember ever hearing a person who suffered a concussion remembering the hit. It is like the mind shields us from pain, in reality a concussion occurs when your brain shakes in your head so the mind may not be able to process what is actually happening at the moment of impact.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I finally learned to ride a bike, so I was successful. I needed motivation. I now have to create my own motivation to get moving and drop these pounds. I will lose 100 pounds during this journey, but I need partners. Are you willing to stay with me on the journey and take your own journey as well? Let me know and join me next week. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"></span><br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09061566752509658808noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7982297219529272918.post-52384243163553211252014-09-29T22:27:00.001-07:002014-09-29T22:27:54.076-07:00Monday #5-To Be Human<span style="font-size: x-large;">"I am a man, I consider nothing that is human alien to me."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">My lips and tongue have embraced the expression that I "want to make a change" in my life and that I am "on a mission to change", but my mind has not done so yet. I still eat crap and I am not moving enough to burn calories. I have the MyFitnessPal app installed, but I conveniently forget to put on the foods I am eating. And then as the day passes my mind turns into the part right before the climax of a romantic comedy when I tell myself that, "Too much time has passed..it can't ever be like it was. It would just be better if I left this day blank."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I do understand that this is a life long process and I can not expect a change over night, but the gravity of the situation escapes me sometimes. As of Monday, September 29, 2014 I am 323.9 pounds. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I eat to fill the time, and that horrible habit has not ceased..yet. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">There is nothing in the world more awkward than being one in a room full of hormonal elementary school students learning about that forbidden subject we often call <span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif; font-size: small;">"sex education"</span> (that was in whisper font). Looking back what is so weird is that sex education is actually a life long process, but what it means changes over time. When you are a kid, it is all about "what" it is. When you get older it becomes about "what different things" other people are doing. And then you want to learn "how to do it well". And you want to practice a lot..over and over and over..you get the point.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">But this story is about when I was a 5th grader who was very excited (that was a pun) to learn about "sex education" from a series of slides on a projector. All of us boys were put in one room and the girls were put into another room, because everyone knows that putting the sexes together to learn about sex education will produce illegitimate children. That is a biological fact, so we were smartly protected from one another's loins.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Now looking back over my life as soon as I walked in the room, the instructor should have gently grabbed my shoulder and said, "Sorry son, but you can be excused. You won't be needing to concern yourself with any of this for another ten..by the looks of you..maybe twelve years. Go study, read a book or something." But thankfully no one did that so I took my seat amongst my classmates and learned about vajayjays.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Now during the slides one of my classmates kept talking and giggling. Let us call him Deion. Now the way I remember Deion is that he looked like Mike Tyson. Mike Tyson when he was in 5th grade. With a very fast rate of speech, but without the classic speech impediment of the Champ. Mind you, I knew who Mike Tyson actually was and one would have thought that any little person who resembled him in speech, physical build and stance would be someone I would avoid trouble with. NOT SO!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Well Deion kept talking and giggling and our instructor, who was a woman who seemed "old" to me at the time--which means she was probably in her early 30's--had had enough. She said something to the effect of, "Deion, you have to leave the room now!" Deion rose from his seat which was close to mine and began to walk out of the room.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">When you look back at life you sometimes wonder openly, "Why did I do that?". You hear people say things like, "THE DEVIL MADE ME DO IT!" and you assume they are just lying. Here is what actually happened in my life at that moment. I felt something in my stomach start to bubble up. This force rose through my chest and filled it up with air. This air pushed its way up my esophagus, started to vibrate my vocal chords and began to press its way into my mouth. It demanded to be freed, but before it did this unexplained smile came over my face. And then I said it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">"HAHAHA DEION! I TOLD YOU TO BE QUIET AND NOW LOO...</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">BAMMM!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">That was the actual sound that totally filled the room full of boys, who were my classmates and the people I was wading through puberty with, when Deion had cocked back and punched me in the side of my head. Not the jaw, or the eye, or the ear, but literally the side of my head that my hair was covering. I had never been punched that hard before, and the funny thing was it happened so quick that I would not have known it happened except for the SONIC BOOM that resulted from the punch and the fact that my head was bumping after he hit me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">What was I to do? I'll tell you what I did. I stood up and stared at Deion. I think back then I had a good 4 to 5 inches in height on him. I don't know if any of you remember this, but the custom when two brothers were engaging in a fight was that they had to get really close to one another (about one to two inches apart) and stare at each other before fighting. Well, we were close enough but I was staring down at him where he was about to my chest level and he was staring up at me and not flinching an inch.</span><br />
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</span><span style="font-size: x-large;">What was I to do? Apparently, not a damn thing. I stared at him with a menacing "BOY-IF-THIS-AIR-BETWEEN-US-WASN'T-HOLDING-ME-BACK-BECAUSE-IT-PROBABLY-HAS-SOME-TYPE-OF-POLLEN-IN-IT-AND-I-HAVE-ASTHMA-I-HEAR-MY-MOTHER-CALLING-BUT-I-WOULD-MESS-YOU-UP-IF-IT-WEREN'T-TUESDAY!" look, which I know put fear into his heart. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">After everyone could see that our "fight" consisted of one punch, Deion was cleared out and I was left staring after him with that menacing "way too long of a phrase to write again" look. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">At that moment the instructor crushed my soul.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">In a deathly silent room full of boys all suppressing the irresistible urge to laugh when you have seen someone get punked she looked at the one tall boy in the middle of that room who had been punked and said with pity in her eyes, "<strong>Young man,</strong> <strong>you did a good thing</strong>." </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">What I just wrote is what she actually said, but there are three different things I heard:</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">#1 "Young man, are your testicles the size of raisins or lint?"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">#2 "Young man, do you like this skirt. I am going to buy you one to wear tomorrow. Would you like red or purple?"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">#3 "Young man, your momma called. She said you can't come home until you punch him back."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Looking back, I know she was saying what she felt. Having enough restraint not to fight is sometimes the best way to prove your manhood. The site of two young black kids fighting over some nonsense was definitely not what she signed up for and I know she was relieved to not have to see that from her people. But I realize all of that in hindsight. At the time, I could not think of anything more mortifying unless right after that my mother ran into the room grabbed my face and gave me several kisses while she yelled, "DID HE HURT YOU, MY BABY, MY BABY!!" That did not happen so the teacher's toxic reassurance was my worst nightmare.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Ladies, some day you may have some slides of vajayjays and want to teach a room full of elementary school boys about sex education. You may be faced with a young man who looks like a pre-pubescent Mike Tyson talking too much. You may ask him to leave and as he is leaving the most handsome, manly and suave 5th grader you have ever seen may say something smart to Iron Mike. Iron Mike may KUMITE the side of Mr. Suave's head. Mr. Suave may stand up and stare down Iron Mike with a "I'm forced to do this right now, and I don't know what to do next" look. Iron Mike may get escorted out by the authorities (Janitor). </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Let me tell you what you should say next.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">"PENNISSSSS!!! PENISSSS!!!" At the top of your lungs. With everything you have in you, you need to be yelling "PENISSS!!" and if you choose you can include a few "VAGINNAAAASS!!". I know, it doesn't make sense now but I will connect the dots in a few sentences. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"> Iyanla gets it:</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Eventually, the authorities (Janitor) will escort you out of the classroom and building as you are yelling these obscenities. You will never be allowed to teach sex education again and you may have your privileges to be around small children again revoked, but here is what you will gain.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">A room full of boys will believe they have witnessed the greatest freakout in the history of the world and all they will remember is there was some fight (who was in it again?) and then THIS LADY JUST STARTED YELLING PENIS AND VAGINA! After a few years the only part they will remember is your freak out. But there is one boy, Mr. Suave, who will know what really happened. He will know you took the fall for him that day, and you deflected attention away from his emasculating moment. He will always remember you just the way you are.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Join me next week as I continue this journey. I might even write down something I ate and get back to walking. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"> </span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09061566752509658808noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7982297219529272918.post-61170429235425856892014-09-22T22:06:00.001-07:002014-09-24T07:24:56.165-07:00Monday #4-Strange Calmness<span style="font-size: large;">"How still, </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">How strangely still,</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">The water is today,</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">It is not good,</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">For water, </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">To be so still that way."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">"Sea Calm" by Langston Hughes</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The story of my life has been being uncomfortable with comfort. Impatient with calm and nervous about compliments. When there have not been actual terrors I have created them in my mind and stressed myself out with false realities. I have worried about what other people would think, and I have not done more with my life because of virtual obstacles instead of real ones. In short I have held myself back.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When I was a kid my sister and I would dare each other to do things. My mother used to put my sister's hair in pig tails, one on each side of her head. I once dared her to cut one of her pig tails off. She took a pair of scissors, put them to her pig tail, and I just remember hearing "shhhrrrkkk" as she cut it off. I don't remember exactly what my mother said, I just remember the look on her face. Her lips curled in to her mouth, her eyes formed a squint--there may have been lasers coming out of them, but I am not sure--and she was extremely unhappy.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The dare I most vividly remember involved a staircase with metal bars. My parents were down stairs in the den and my sister and I were upstairs--for some reason near the stair case. Either I said, "Hey dummy I bet you I can put my head in those bars!" or she said, "Hey fool I bet you can not put your head through those bars!" Either way my life would not be complete until my head pushed through those bars.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">My disclaimer is that whey you are young you are literally stupid. There is no better word to describe your state of mind. Dictionary.com defines "stupid" as: "lacking ordinary quickness and keeness of mind; dull." At that moment I lacked ordinary quickness and keeness of mind--one could say I was dull. So with that disclaimer out of the way, I was ready to DO THIS!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">If you ever want to get your head through bars the first rule is: DON'T DO IT! The second rule if you ignore the first is if you really want it to be painful: JUST USE YOUR HEAD! Don't try to use your hands to open the bars a little bit, don't do anything else but push your head (whatever size) through those bars. See, I am all about following rules--so I skipped the first rule and jumped straight to the second. My goal was to get my head through the bars, so I pushed and pushed and pushed. My sister watched me I know, and I did not see her face but I imagine it looked like this:</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I kept pushing until the top part of my head was in--YESSS! Then the bars hit my ears--NOO!! It really hurt to push my head through while mushing my ears but my thought process was, "Ears, who needs ears, I want to push my head through these bars and my ears won't stop me!" *Please go back up and read my earlier disclaimer* </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I pushed past the pain of mushing my ears and my head was finally through! Now here is the thing, when you make it your goal to do something horribly stupid and you accomplish that goal the reality of what you did starts to set in. It was hard to get my head in between those bars. It felt impossible to get my head out. And I tried, but all that kept happening was the portion of my head right behind my ears was banging into the bars and hurting. I was freaking out, because I could not turn my head and the first rule of life when you are a kid is that if you stick your head through bars and can't turn your head then monsters will immediately eat you from behind. This rule is true even if your sister is right beside you freaking out. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I could no longer remain stoic and keep my cool so my parents would remain unaware of my dumb action. Which means that one second after I realized my head wasn't coming out I was screaming like a banshee. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Now this happened a long time ago, so I only have shadows of memories. Let me paint the scene. My mother was definitely screaming. My father was grabbing and trying to "yank" me out of the bars while trying to bend them with his hands at the same time. My sister told me later that "Country Crock" was involved and liberally rubbed all over my neck, face and hair. If you don't know what "Country Crock" is just know that they had the best voiceover commercials on the planet, the container was made of a beige plastic and contained more "butter like substance" than you could ever use in one lifetime. I believe the whole tub was used on me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">After much heroic yanking and bar bending my father was able to pull me out. I don't remember the hugs and kisses, but I do remember the spanking. My Pops immediately started spanking me which probably only lasted a few seconds before my mother told him to stop. Now of all of the few spankings I ever received, this was the only one even then I knew I truly deserved. My parents did not go "Tsk-Tsk son, you are such a card! You know better than to push your head through staircase bars and nearly cut off your circulation and give us both heart attacks. We won't do anything like that again will we? We will do better next time won't we? We are not amused. Do you want a hug?" It was more like, "POP, POP, POP! What the h*ll is wrong with you! POP!" </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I don't know what the parental gene is called of desperately worrying about your child's safety, but then when you know they are safe wanting to put the fear of God into them. I fully understand it as a parent now. You want your children to be their best, but you understand mortality. The young often think they are invincible and the older you get the more you know that man is mortal. Doing stupid things can kill you. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">My parents were terrified, I know this because my mother was screaming and my father was trying to yank me away from metal bars. They had never dealt with a child who stuck his fat head through bars before. If you asked them now they could give you a dissertation on the angle you should pull the child and the flavor of "Country Crock" that is best to remove said child. But, back then they were only a little older than I am now and terrified that their youngest son was going to lose his head on the staircase. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I didn't lose my head folks. I did not, however, stop doing stupid things. I could tell you about the time I stabbed myself while trying to open a can of soup with a steak knife, or about the time I picked up a hitchiking "potential" crackhead and got stopped by the cops who made us get out the car, or the time I put a battery to my braces---I think I should stop now. As of 10:35 p.m. on Monday, September 22, 2014 I am 321.9 pounds. I am still on track and feeling good. I have to count my calories more and eat better--but I am feeling positive about my progress. Stay on my journey with me and I will see you next week.</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09061566752509658808noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7982297219529272918.post-45305852766042867542014-09-15T22:05:00.001-07:002014-09-15T22:05:15.692-07:00Monday #3--Took a Risk<span style="font-size: x-large;"> </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">"Do not judge me by my successes, judge me by how many times I fell down and got back up again."</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I was in 5th Grade and I thought I was in "love" with this girl in my school...let us call her Leticia. I lived in a house with my sister and my mother that we rented in this tiny culdesac and Leticia lived in a neighborhood close by that was separated from us by a large chain fence. We used to talk at that fence for what I remember as being days on end, but more accurately was probably about thirty minutes since my mother would yell for me to come inside and I would awkwardly say "bye" to her and run into the house. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I thought she was the sun and the moon. Even though looking back she could probably tell I had a crush on her because I was staring at her across a giant fence in the cold with puppy dog eyes, I did not think she truly understood. So I devised a brilliant plan. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">It was a Friday and our class was watching a movie. I expertly placed myself in a seat, which happend to be assigned, that was right behind Leticia. She was wearing her backpack at the time, this girl was eager to get out of our crampled class and exprience LIFE, and I decided I would send something home with her. I constructed a note which can only be described as the <strong>GREATEST PIECE OF WRITING EVER WRITTEN</strong>, in my mind at the time, and waited for the right moment to place it in her book carrier. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Each time I reached to put the note in her knowledge container someone would cough or a distant cockatoo would crow in the piney field (we had cockatoos that randomly crowed in piney fields in North Carolina) and she would look back and I would pretend as if nothing was more interesting than how the narrator described that one beautiful ant carrying a leaf. Finally, with sweat dripping down my brow and my heart pounding I gingerly unzipped her backpack half an inch--slipped in my masterpiece--and lightly zipped it back up. The end-of-day bell rang, she looked back at me suspiciously and as manly as possible I pretended to play a one man game of "Ms. Mary Mack".</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I left school feeling nervous, scared and excited. I felt exultant, that I had finally let her know exactly how I felt. I imagined that she would be melted by my words and we would live a happy and wonderful life together. I thought about what I wrote and I imagined I had written:</span><br />
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<em><span style="font-size: large;">The truest pity of the English language is that no words have yet been formed to describe how incomparably beautiful you are. No syllables have been constructed that can encapsulate the rapture one feels when they look at the beautiful ivory orbs containing amber jewels some would call your eyes. There are no sentences that can cope with the magnitude of your majestic shape and the letter has not yet been created that is worthy to capture the elegance of your celestial face. I, but a humble English speaker can only shape my tongue in archaic manner to feebly attempt to explain the joy your grace and magnificence conveys to my soul. If you, a goddess, would only kiss your poor servant's unworthy lips then maybe the heavenly speech could come to me to describe but half of your beauty. One, yet not one as lowly as I, I, but not one as base as me could only hope for such a miracle.</span></em><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">This is what I think I really wrote:</span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-size: x-large;"><strong>Ummm..I saw you. When I see you my pants feel so tight...not tight like normal, but tight like a different kind of tight...ummm..bye.</strong></span><span style="font-size: x-large;"></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Needless to say, I was excited about writing the note and putting it in her knowledge container. Once she read it she would have no doubt how I felt. I was sure when I saw her on Monday she would either tell me she felt the same way or we would at least talk about our relationship changing going forward.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I was mistaken.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">On Monday, she hardly acknowledged me at all. Except in the cafeteria line where she was with a group of girls giggling. She was holding something that looked a lot like my note..and they were having a good old time looking at it, looking back at me, and laughing incessently. I was embarrassed and I was hurt. It was not just the laughing, but the fact that she did not acknowledge me at all. I poured out my heart onto a piece of loose leaf paper--all of my intrepid emotions, the important fact that my pants felt tight around her, and I received no personal response in return. Did her pants feel tight around me..and if so why? Nothing.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Fast forward one year and I am in a new school and hopelessly infatuated with another girl...let us call her Denita. Denita was popular and I liked her not only because she was pretty, but also because everybody else liked her too. It was human nature, no one would go to an empty restaurant so we gravitate to the things that "everyone" enjoys.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">We were all sitting at a lunch table in the cafeteria, (cafeterias apparently hold bad omens in my life) I was probably 5 feet from her sitting on the opposite side. I received a tap on my shoulder, a young lady said, "Denita wants you to peel her banana!" and thereupon she handed me an unpeeled banana. I took the banana and looked up at Denita who gave me one of these:</span><br />
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I thought that was a definite sign of "interest" to say the least. I didn't realize that was the universal face for "is this fool really going to peel my banana"? I really did peel the banana and handed it back to the girl playing telephone who passed it down the line to Denita. General giggling ensued and that was it. I was out of the cafeteria and back in class before I realized I was played. Again, with no acknowledgement. <br />
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It hurts to be ignored. It sucks to give something and not receive reciprocation or any recognition of your act. But that is life. Those two girls were not anywhere close to the loves of my life. I already found her and I am building a life with her. But disappointment and dealing with it, and fighting through it, and learning from it are everything that life is about. As I go through this journey to lose this 100 pounds I know there will be setbacks. I need to keep my focus on how good it feels to succeed and how good I will feel to be healthy for life. At 11:18 p.m. on Monday, September 15, 2014 I am 323.6 pounds. Still losing weight after three weeks of this journey and still on track. Keep coming back and stay with me on this journey.<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09061566752509658808noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7982297219529272918.post-15520006023509926652014-09-08T20:39:00.001-07:002014-09-08T20:39:07.655-07:00Monday #2-The Chains that I Revere<span style="font-size: x-large;">"It is difficult to free fools from the chains they revere."</span><br />
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I like sweet food. I crave it. I will do stupid things like get groceries and then "sneak" an Oatmeal Cream Pie (really 2) into the cart and eat it on the way home. I like drinks that are sweet too, and soda has been a staple of my diet for almost two decades. Dr. Pepper is always involved with those Oatmeal Cream Pies. Sugar is a constant in my life. I also like meat. Any kind. Pork, beef, chicken, possum, wallaby...I have actually never eaten possum or wallaby, but if you held up a plate that looked half decent and said, "This is possum or maybe wallaby!" I would take a bite. We have rabbits that run around in our neighborhood and I always tell my kids and wife that they look "delicious". This disgusts them to no end, but I find it hilarious and halfway truthful. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I eat to fill the time, I eat to relax, I eat to not "do" whatever else it is that I am supposed to "do". I eat late at night. When everyone else is asleep, I will go down to our kitchen and open the fridge. I avoid healthier options like an apple, pear, or grapes. I want something that is sugary--both to eat and drink--because that feels like a meal. I want to eat something meaty as well so I will both get sugar and salt in the same binge eating session. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">Instead of doing something productive, I seek out the destructive through my late night eating. I know I need to give that up to achieve this change in my life, but a big part of me finds the habit slightly satisfying.</span><br />
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I have several regrets. You always hear famous people say, "I have no regrets. I would not change ONE thing about my life, because if not for those things then BLAH, BLAH, BLAH!!" That is official bullshit. Sure, the painful parts of life have put me at this point in my life, but I would change that shiggidy in 1/2 second if I could. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">As an example, if I could go back I would dress up for "picture days" at school. Why not look good on the one day that the school officially records your picture for all of posterity? Do I have to look like a homeless troll with non-connecting facial hair in every class picture I have taken? Could I have added one less wrinkle in my shirt? Could I have had a haircut within the week before the picture or made my hairline look like anything other than an upside down U? The answer is "Maybe"...actually it is "YES, DEFINITELY, YES"!!!</span><br />
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2nd regret: I would have taken full advantage of playing Varsity high school basketball on a team in the great state of North Carolina. I was able to play a sport that millions of people play, for a team that was able to face incredibly stiff competition and I never took it serious enough. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">I treated it like a hobby, which was not a bad thing since I focused on my academics, but was not intelligent because I limited my options. I was in the best shape of my life, because I got to jump and run around after an inflated ball all week, but I didn't see the privilege of what I was doing. People could not walk and dreamed of walking, but I was upset about running so much. I was a Varsity athlete on a team and guys who dreamed of playing for our team were cut, but I took it for granted that I would get to be on and start on that same team. If I could go back I would have run more, practiced much more, and WORKED at the game of basketball. Who knows what could have been?</span><br />
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3rd regret and the biggest one of this essay, I mean blog: I wish I had been there for my sister when she needed me. My cloudy memory of this is that my younger sister and I were at a private daycare which consisted of some woman's house who my mother knew. I was probably ten, maybe older but somewhere around that age. I remember the babysitter had two kids: a boy younger than my sister and another older son around my age--let us name him <b>SATAN</b>. Well, for some reason us kids were all left alone outside near the back door and <b>SATAN</b> had some issue with my sister and me. I remember <b>SATAN</b> reaching back and punching my sister in the stomach. I remember my sister doubling over in pain and then I remember freezing...doing absolutely nothing after <b>SATAN</b> punched my only sister in the stomach. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">All I remember about that moment is my thought process. Fear was present, but mostly my mind was going through the rules of civility. My young mind could not comprehend how someone who knew we were guests in his house, whose mother was inside, could act violently towards said guests, especially said guest who was a small, young girl. My mind would not allow me to believe what I just saw so my body reacted by doing nothing..not one thing. I don't remember anything that happened after that.</span><br />
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I am 33 years old. I have gone to college, law school, got married, fathered two children, and now with my wife I am raising those two children. My sister and I have gone through so many life experiences since then together and separately. But that one memory stands out, and I know I could be 97 on my deathbed and if I thought of that moment I would have the same shameful feeling of futility. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">When I relieve that memory I always feel like I am watching my favorite team go down in flames and I just want to yell at the screen, "GODDAMMIT DO SOMETHING OUT THERE!!" I want to say to her I am sorry that I missed that moment to protect you. I love you and I would never want to see you hurt like that again.</span><br />
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We do not get time machines in life. Staying tied to the past is part of the reason I have allowed myself to mindlessly eat my way to my current weight (which as of 10:45 p.m. on Monday, September 8, 2014 is 325 pounds). If they did make time machines and the machine only allowed me to go back to the moment of my shameful inaction then you would not be reading my blog. You would be reading another blog post called:</span><br />
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<u><span style="font-size: x-large;">WHY HE BEAT ME SO BAD?</span></u></div>
<span style="font-size: x-large;">The moment I will always live to regret when I punched some kid's sister in the stomach and then he beat me so badly that I lost my ability to say the word "the" properly, use my left arm, walk without a limp, and smell apples.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;">by <b>SATAN </b>(foreword by Tyler Perry)</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><strong>SATAN</strong> (the lighter version)</span></div>
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But we do not get time machines, so I live with that memory. I have rarely in my life given in to my animal instinct. With this fight, battling my unhealthy weight, I have to use my mind and my instincts. I can not afford to be a punk about this or anything else for that matter. Death does not discriminate and if I keep up my unhealthy habits that or a terrible quality of life are the only options that await me. I want to live, I want to be happy, and I want to get more moments to show that I can take care of my family. Join me next Monday to see where I am headed on this journey. Thanks for watching. </span><br />
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<tr><td><span style="font-size: x-large;">"I shall be telling this with a sigh</span></td><td><a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name="16"><span style="font-size: x-large;"></span></a></td></tr>
<tr><td><span style="font-size: x-large;">Somewhere ages and ages hence:</span></td><td><a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name="17"><span style="font-size: x-large;"></span></a></td></tr>
<tr><td><span style="font-size: x-large;">Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—</span></td><td><a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name="18"><span style="font-size: x-large;"></span></a></td></tr>
<tr><td><span style="font-size: x-large;">I took the one less traveled by,</span></td><td><a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name="19"><span style="font-size: x-large;"></span></a></td></tr>
<tr><td><span style="font-size: x-large;">And that has made all the difference." -</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"> July 25, 2016. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Exactly 100 Mondays from today, September 1,
2014.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>About one year and 10 months in
the future from this moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At that
point my goal is to be 100 pounds lighter than I am today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Healthy, active, happy, and 100 pounds
less.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How much do I weigh now?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>At approximately 8:37 p.m. on Monday,
September 1, 2014 I am 329.4 pounds.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It
is not the heaviest I have ever been in my life, but it is much heavier than I
should ever be.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How do you get
here?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>How does someone who was 220
pounds and athletic when he graduated high school become someone who is closer
to 350 pounds than 300 pounds?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s
rewind for a little bit to figure it out.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"> My dream was to go to Duke.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Ever since I was in middle school and watched Grant Hill play basketball,
I knew I wanted to be like him and go to Duke University.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was also spurred on by the fact that
everywhere I looked in my school and my city of Greensboro, N.C. all the other
kids and adults were wearing these horribly ugly light blue “Carolina” hats and
shirts.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I did not like the concept of going
with the crowd on this choice and there was a sense of freedom in rooting for a
school that excelled academically and athletically that was led by a classy brother.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It became my singular focus to do two things:
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"> My parents were
divorced and in our house in North Carolina was just my mother, my younger
sister and I.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My father was still very
much in my life, but I did not want to be a financial burden on my mother
throughout college.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was blessed enough
to have the chance to learn Karate from a young age into my teenage years,
participate in Debate competitions throughout high school, and play on my
Varsity high school basketball team all four years of high school.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was blessed, focused, and I truly believed
that I could achieve my dream.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And then
it happened….<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"> I was invited to attend a “scholarship weekend” in which
different successful students who had applied to Duke from around North
Carolina were invited to come to the University for a weekend of interviews
(and fun).<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was a wonderful weekend; I
don’t remember anything about my interviews.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I only remember two things distinctly:<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">1) We got to meet Coach K, which at first was amazing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All of us were shocked that he was actually
in front of us in the flesh and we were so quiet waiting to hear his words of
wisdom.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Wellllll, I only remember a few
words.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Most of them had four letters; I
think he might have even thrown in a word with twelve letters in total for good
measure.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The gist of his speech was to
not be too disappointed if you do not get into the University.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Don’t cut your f*cking wrist.”, was what
really hit home for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That moment was
a beautiful moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There is no look as
profound as the look of horror in the eyes of adults around you who can not do
one solitary thing to stop someone acting a true fool who has the most power in
the room.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He was Coach K and they were “administrators”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So at such a young tender age we were allowed
to hear what it probably sounds like to be “coached” by perhaps the greatest
coach of all time, because everyone was terrified to tell this man to shut up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">2) I blew off the last day’s events, which included parents
coming to the auditorium to mingle with the administrators and gush over their
successful children, so I could sneak into a Duke Men’s basketball game.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Here was the plan:<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I met another guy up for a scholarship who I
became cool with that weekend and we would take the campus ID’s of the students
who hosted us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My friend happened to be
white and have a white host and I was black and happened to have a black host.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"></span><span style="font-size: x-large;">We would get in line to get into the game and
simply BE COOL and present “our ID’s”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
was going first and my comrade was behind me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The guy checking ID’s was a young looking white kid, who politely took
my ID and looked at it—then handed it right back to me and let me go towards
the door.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>SUCCESS!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Now it was my friend’s turn.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The ID checker took his ID, looked at it,
looked at my pal, formed a scowl on his face and sternly said, “YOU'RE NOT JOHN!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As cool as the other side of the pillow I
said, “Hey why aren’t you letting John through?”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The ID checker looked at me and said, “He’s
not John, I KNOW JOHN!!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was faced
with a dilemma, the ID gestapo obviously knew my partner “WAS NOT JOHN!!”, but
for some reason (I’m black) did not put together (I’m black) that I too was not
the person on the ID (maybe because I’m black)?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Should I get out of line and not go to the game in solidarity with “NOT
JOHN!” or should I be a bastard and go inside and fulfill a lifelong dream as
only a high schooler?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What I did next
the kids today would call a “Kanye shrug”, but at this point Kanye West was
still on Mars so I thought in my head “oh well, bye NOT JOHN” and I walked
inside.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I got to watch Shane Battier,
Elton Brand, Will Avery and Chris Carrawell and other Duke stars massacre some
team I don’t even remember.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was worth
being a dick and ditching “NOT JOHN” and getting yelled at by my mother later
that night by not showing up for “an important event that may have cost me a
scholarship”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"> As a result of that weekend I was an “alternate” for a B.N. Duke
Scholarship.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That meant that if someone
decided not to come to Duke who was eligible for the scholarship I would get
it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I received some other good news a
few weeks later—I was accepted to Harvard University and they wanted to give me
a scholarship.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have to say this up
front, I did not ever have any intention to attend Harvard.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was a momma’s boy and I could not imagine
being that far from my mother, my sister and North Carolina.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But, Duke did not know that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So I politely let Duke know I was accepted to
Harvard—with money—and they politely let me know, “Well will you look at that,
we must have forgotten to carry the 1, because you actually are accepted as a
B.N. Duke Scholar!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And that was it; I
achieved my dream of attending Duke University with a scholarship.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"> Now what I just laid out was a fairy tale that happened to
be totally true and my real life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The
problem with fairy tales is they never talk about what happens after.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Sometimes the worst thing that can happen to
you is not failing, but instead succeeding too quickly.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I had worked hard to get into Duke, but after
I got in I did not take the necessary steps to find another star to shoot
for.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I became lazy, I discovered “food
points” (which I am convinced are of the devil), I discovered the gym—which I
utilized mostly Freshman and Sophomore year and then rarely if ever my last two
years.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I set up a pattern of not
challenging myself, taking the easy way out of things, and not being diligent
about healthy routines.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"> It is a long jump from that point to here, but I will fill
in the blanks through the rest of my blogs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I realize that what goes on between my ears explains what goes into my
mouth and why I take the actions I do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
have a lot to live for and be proud of.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>A beautiful and successful wife, two amazing children, and a great
family all around.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have lots of
support and luckily I am healthy enough to do this of my own volition and not
because I am forced to physically.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Achieving this goal will benefit my life in every way I can think of,
and this is solely for me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I want this
as bad as I have wanted anything else.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is my next star…..see you next Monday.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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